Deciding not to hate

February 11th, 2021 by Kat Kingsley-Hughes

Some days ‘go wrong’ real early. Sometimes I step into a trap. Sometimes I trust when my instinct tells me it’s not safe. Sometimes I am asked to share an opinion only so the asker can jump on it. Sometimes people just want someone to blame. Sometimes people pick a fight because they can’t have a hug. Sometimes people are too avoidant to reply to you. Sometimes they dump all their baggage on you. Sometimes people seem really scary. Sometimes I have to love them anyway just as they are. Sometimes I have to remind myself there is no point expecting anything different to what is. Some days I have to be my own best friend. Some days there is a lump in my throat the size of a grapefruit. Most of the time I choose not to hide my vulnerability. Sometimes that makes me a fool. Sometimes that gives people power. Some days, like this day, I have to work all this through from first principles, through all the pain and all the confusion and all the shit, and then decide not to hate anyway.

Good morning.

Wishing you a peaceful and safe day 🙏

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