Bardsey Island Observational Research Project


More Photos

Some more photos taken on Bardsey Island last month when we stayed at Carreg Bach, the tiny crog loft cottage that is the oldest of the houses on the island.

Island Cottages

This is a shot of the warden’s cottage and the adjoining house next door. In the publicly shared image, I’ve edited out the storm damage, which you can see from the original photo is quite extensive. In the winter storms, Bardsey experienced winds greater than 100 mph and several of the buildings were damaged.

Storm damage

Storm damage

Another photo shared on my Flickr collection is this photo I took of the small chapel on the island that revealed to me a slightly more unpleasant aspect to the island’s history.

Illuminated Walls

This little chapel on used to be the hermitage of an elderly nun. She lived on the island for many years with this tiny ascetic cell as her living space. Her scratchings on the walls told a sad story of devotion and deprivation hidden beneath the whitewash. The hammer on the table beside the purple-shrouded cross is placed there as an invitation to exchange Jesus’ suffering for our sins by banging in a nail. In a place that had witnessed so much suffering, this seemed to me to be too cruel a symbolism. I declined, instead placing a stone in the prayer basket hanging from the ceiling. The ghosts of the island became suddenly  too palpable and macabre. I left quickly, but it was difficult to let the feeling go and I felt that I carried it with my for the rest of my stay on the island. You can read more about this picture on Seeing the Gorilla photography blog.

Bardsey has been a holy place for some 1500 years, with reputedly the bodies of 20,000 pilgrims buried there. It was decreed that three trips to Bardsey were worth one pilgrimage to Rome.  I suppose pilgrimages are not meant to be comfortable and this, my sixth trip to Bardsey, was for me a challenge. For the first time I glimpsed something beyond the  spirituality and sacredness of this place to realise that those pilgrims, the sick, dying, righteous and penitent, made this journey seeking something different to the stunning beauty and peacefulness that I have found in this place.  The journey here was deadly, especially as the pilgrims were often already sick, probably gravely so, and such was the problem of travellers dying en route to the island that eventually it was said that you would go to heaven, not just if you died on Bardsey, but also if you died on the way there.  In reality, Bardsey may well have been a more grim destination than the beautiful island that draws me back each year. And rather than a spiritual journey, for those pilgrims, it must have been a more tortuous experience.

It took a while to break free of these sensations, well after I had returned home. My journey to Bardsey was meant to be a spiritual quest rather than a creative retreat and Enlli certainly gave me plenty to think about while I was there.

Whatever our beliefs, we humans should be kinder to each other, and maybe this should start with being kinder to ourselves.

Carreg Bach 2014

Carreg Bach

Carreg Bach

Had a wonderful nine days on Bardsey in early May. The crog loft cottage Carreg Bach came available at the last minute and we decided to go.  This quaint cottage is the oldest of the cottages on the island and is usually booked up a year in advance. So we were very lucky!

'My Little Stone' - Bardsey Island, Wales
As usual we took a lot of photographs. We had a mix of weather, from beautiful sun to fog to strong winds that whipped up huge waves.
'Overcome' - Bardsey Island, Wales

A combination of the strong winds shaking the simple slate roof that separated us from the elements, made sleeping challenging and I found I had a few sleepless nights. The Manx shearwaters were making the creepy calls that we have now become accustomed to, but in Carreg Bach they seem someone closer. I don’t know if this is because their flight paths take them a lot closer to Carreg Bach than Hendy, or whether it is the thinness of the roof that made it sound as though those birds were inside the cottage with us.

Roof beams

'Home Away From Home' - Bardsey Island, Wales

The cottage is very cosy inside and it’s hard not to feel like you’ve been transported to another time. I took so many photographs of the inside of the cottage as I found it so compelling. I kept finding myself imagining the people who had lived in that cottage over the years. At times it felt a little creepy, and I’m not normally given to the creeps, so perhaps it was the weather or the strangeness of staying in a different cottage or perhaps it was the long nights when I just couldn’t sleep. Whatever it was, it sparked my imagination which came through in my writing. Bardsey never fails to give me ideas and this visit was no exception.

'In the Middle' - Bardsey Island, Wales

As always we were treated to some fabulous sunsets.

Thank you Ynys Enlli for another great trip.

I will post more pictures soon!

2013 The Sequel

Well I was right. The kids didn’t come with us. We were going to be on this island this time without them. I was quite worried as I boarded the boat this time. I was even a little sad. What would it be like with just the two of us? How would the kids get on at home without us? We weren’t going to be able to get back if they needed us and depending on the weather we might not even be able to phone them. We needn’t have worried. They got on fine. They even managed to send post at the end of the first week with supplies that I’d forgotten and a few goodies in case we’d run out of snacks. Food did get a bit short towards the end of the second week, but we were just fine for snacks. As it happened we were happily making trips to the little farm shop each day and buying flapjacks and cans of ginger beer. Little luxuries that we hadn’t indulged in so much on previous trips. It was nice.

We took turns cooking and it all ran pretty smoothly. Adrian took thousands of photographs and quite a bit of time lapse.

We had picnics and sat up nights listening to the Manx sheer waters and doing night photography.

I got a fair bit of writing done too. It seems like my writing mojo has returned and the ideas are flowing faster than I can write them down. Bardsey magic is magic!!

The weather wasn’t too bad. We had fires in the evening in the log burner. We photographed seals and helicopters and Adrian got some fabulous shots of the Milky Way.

All in all it was a fabulous trip. Thanks again Bardsey!


2013 part 2 helicopter


2013 pt2 mountain view

2013 Early Summer

On our trip to Bardsey this year we were joined by Adrian. He’d visited the island before but only overnight. Being away from work and phone signal and electricity and the internet is a BIG thing for him to sign up for. Of course we were armed to the teeth with power packs and solar chargers, so we would still be able to charge iPhones and iPads and Kindles. So not exactly the low tech trip of previous visits.

The kids found it harder to tear themselves away from their lives this trip. They didn’t venture out to meet up with others as much. They didn’t attend the art classes as they had on previous visits. They seemed more concerned with maintaining their home routines of dancing practice, fitness and vocal warm ups.

2013 pt 1 Meals

Adrian and I had a great time. He really fell into the freedom of the island life. He took photographs, he read, we walked and talked, he emptied the toilet bucket (most welcome!) and he sat with me watching the seals in awed silence.

My visit to the island was different to my trip in 2012. It was better because we were all together but it was profoundly different because I wasn’t alone and in my own space and my time wasn’t quite as much my own. But we had good times together. We took a lot of photographs.

We also messed around a lot more than on previous trips. We took silly panorama photos, taking turns to stand at one end of the picture and then running around behind the photographer to appear at the other end. I spent a lot of time looking through my jeweller’s loupe magnifying glass, enlarging the microcosmic worlds inside of flowers and rocks to the size of great canyons and vistas before me, populated with giant greenflies and aphids. I studied the eyes of snails and the patterns on their shells. I took photos of lichens and buttercups with my iPhone through the loupe lens.

It was wonderful. Doing nothing. I spent my evenings doodling and doing watercolors. I drew alien lifeforms on my iPad and morphed pictures of the children into strange creatures. It was all so different from the more spiritual journey of last year. But it was still Bardsey – a wonderful warm adventure. A sort of coming home.

2013 pt 1 Bardsey main street

Leaving Bardsey was very very different though. Mostly this was because we knew we would be coming back again at the end of the summer. Adrian was hooked. He wanted to come back and what’s more he wanted a two week stay. As we boarded the boat I had a sneaking suspicion we would be coming back alone. The kids had missed their friends and YouTube and technology so much but two whole weeks will undoubtedly be too much for them.

We shall see!!

2013 Hendy

Return to Bardsey

This trip has been very much a spiritual journey for me. Grief and healing were at the top of my agenda. It was wonderful to return to Bardsey and find everything just as I’d left it two years previously. I think somewhere in the back of my mind, I’d thought perhaps I had imagined the island and its delights. Last time I was here I was concentrating on observational research, infusing the arena, and with coming up with a film script based around it. It was entirely possible that fiction and reality had blurred, but as it was most of my recollections and observations were right on the money.

The rhythm of life that we had fallen into on our first visit, quickly reemerged once we were on the island. Waking up with the sun, walking, cooking and reading after finishing carrying buckets and a myriad of other domestic tasks in the morning, teatime in the afternoon, finishing up the daily chores before sunset, falling asleep to the sound of the Manx sheerwaters each night. All done without the aid of a watch, clock or other timepiece. Just living by nature and doing what needs doing. My youngest, who had only visited the island for one night previously, this time had to deal with the lack of plumbing and high speed internet for real. She managed it admirably.


The kids spent most of their time off exploring and having fun with the other young people on the island. My days were spent reading, having lonely walks along the cliffs, speaking my sorrows into the noise of the pounding surf, sitting in the chapel and in the abbey ruins, thinking and meditating. Bardsey without the pressure of having a project to write was a revelation. It seemed to spread its arms around me and soothe my mind.

2012 boathouse

Evenings were spent sitting together in the living room replaced sitting around the long dining table on this trip. The supply of firewood had been replaced by bags of coal and without fire lighters these were almost impossible to light. Each night I tried to get the coal to light, urging it with gathered kindling sticks and fuzz sticks carved from gorse roots I dried in front of the gas fire and punk wood I found on the mountain top, but nothing could ignite the black stones. If they were indeed coal they needed are far more intense burn to get them started than I was able to provide. So each night we ended up sitting around the gas burner in the living room, which we’d decorated with strings of battery powered LED fairy lights that made just enough glow to read by.

2012 meals

At times I resorted to watching the episodes of The Walking Dead on my iPad that I’d downloaded before leaving home. Watching video on the island was strangely confusing. The gang of survivors from the zombie apocalypse on my screen were living on a farm, and the sounds of the sheep and cows of Bardsey provided a stereophonic backdrop to each episode. This was more than a little unsettling and several nights I realised I had scared myself to the point that I was a little jumpy as I made my way out to the outhouse last thing at night. Eventually I gave up watching video as I realised it wasn’t being very mindful of my location on the island. It was as if the place was forcing me to calm my brain and shut out the things of the outside world that didn’t belong there.

2012 sheep

Each day I would do the rounds of my solar chargers, moving them around to follow the sun and swapping the power packs attached to them and moving round our various devices between them. I was pleased to have been able to power everyone’s phones, iPads, Kindles and the kids games for the entire time and we left with everything fully charged, including the battery packs. Of course I didn’t use the phone much. The few times I tried I couldn’t get signal, but with so much happening in life it was better to be able to put the outside world where it belonged – outside.


2012 Bardsey sunset

“I thank Bardsey for all that it has given me. I thank its people and its history for welcoming me and for subtly teaching me a better way of life. It’s not a life that I would wish to live all the time, but it is so important for me to dip into, to return on my pilgrimage and refill my cup. My cup runs over now. I am very happy. The sea in the distance, the wind whistling at the door.”

Leaving Bardsey was as tough as always, but as I stepped off the island onto Colin’s boat this time I knew I was leaving behind troubles and taking away peace. I was different from who I’d been when I had arrived.

As ever, Enlli did its magic.

2012 rainbow

Reflective Essay: “Being on Bardsey”

Choosing an Arena

In choosing a location for the observational research project, I needed to reflect upon my own strengths and weaknesses. It was suggested by the course team that students chose a location that was challenging and outside of our individual comfort zones. This meant that I had to first identify my comfort zones. An important consideration is that I suffer from anxiety. I don’t like travelling and avoid it as much as possible. So, when starting out on the observational research project it quickly became apparent that whichever location I chose, wherever I went, the challenge was going to be just being there, in a strange place, and dealing with that.

The island itself presented numerous additional challenges that relate to being an island in the Irish Sea that is separated from the mainland by a rough stretch of water that requires specialist navigation and frequently causes the island to be cut off from the mainland, sometimes for months at a time. The island itself was a symbol of separation. Yet for millennia Bardsey has been a place of pilgrimage from all over the world. People still choose to live there in houses with none of the modern conveniences of running water, plumbing, electric light or telephones. Issues and happenings in the wider world cease to be important when one is on the island and dealing with the realities of life there. Life on the island is therefore very much about separation. People who live here choose to live separately. Throughout its ancient history the island has been a symbol of that separateness.

Observational Research

Shortly after my fifteen year old daughter and I had arrived on the island I began to search for an answer to the question of how the islanders deal with being separated from those they love. When I asked islanders about this their replies almost seem to dodge the question. Being on Bardsey was what was important. What was happening elsewhere was therefore irrelevant. My own experiences provided more powerful answers when the lack of phone signal made it impossible to tell loved ones that we had safely arrived, what the island was like or how we were doing. My solution to this was to write letters, which provided a welcome semblance of a conversation albeit imaginary. The need to record my impressions and experiences grew even stronger. This would later become the solution chosen by the young 1930s girl Helen to deal with her separation from Huw. But how would my daughter and I deal with it differently? Were our generations equipped differently to handle this separation? How would a young girl, used to modern conveniences and communications technology deal with separation from her world and from her boyfriend? Would she have the inner resources and mindfulness to even put up with her time on the island, let alone come to form a bond with the place? The character of Beth grew out of this question.

Parlour and Fireplace

Because the island environment would be so foreign to the reader it would be essential that the main character was venturing there for the first time. I chose a female character mainly because for a young girl the environment would be so much harder to deal with than for boys (within days of arriving there I noticed the boys stopped washing, wearing shirts or shoes and quickly adjusted to their environment). The girls however were more concerned with appearance and although they did integrate into the environment, it took longer. I was able to observe my daughter struggling with these difficulties. Each cottage had its own visitor’s book where one previous visitor – a teenage girl – had written and drawn all over it, making clear how she felt about Bardsey and its lack of television and communications. Thus Beth became a rebellious teenage girl.

Separation and Communication

So many features of the arena seem to manifest the problems of separation and the difficulties in communication. Bardsey is not only separated from the mainland, but its tall mountain is yet another barrier that obscures sight of the mainland as well as blocking modern communications. The island lends itself to isolation. Visitors still go there to be separate, not just geographically, but in time. Many logbook entries speak of the visitor’s gratitude at the opportunity to live the simpler lifestyle from a bygone age. Islanders do however speak of the difficulties of being separated from their friends and loved ones as being a perennial problem. The boatman is also the local postman who brings post once a week, tide permitting. Any person who is travelling to or from the island in the intervening period then is likely to be asked to carry a letter or two – just as I was asked on the day I left to carry the beautifully scented and wax-sealed letter from an islander to their sick friend on the mainland who needed the good wishes for a speedy recovery conveyed faster. This letter struck me as very different to the letters I wrote to my husband, which were not designed to be sent on paper. I knew as I was typing them that I would either give him the text to read later once I was safely home or that I would, as it happened, find a spot where there was sufficient mobile signal to send it via email. Writing that text was therefore not so much a method of communication with him, as much as it was a method of me dealing with my own issues of being there.


“Being on Bardsey” as the title suggests is about being. Whether it is about being on the island or being in the moment, it is the act of wholeheartedly being present that is central to both the story and the experience of being there. The problems of separation (whether they be through distance, time or death) are not really solved by communication. Communication really only gives us a sense of the other person, whether that is voice at the end of a telephone, a photograph, a letter, the island’s lighthouse flashing its warning or the cries of the Manx Sheerwaters as they call out to their mates flying around in the dark. We, as individuals, still have to deal with being there. In writing I tried to keep this theme in the front of my mind in order to infuse it throughout the script.


Our cottage on Bardsey

It became clear that the characters in the story should experience the pain of separation caused, not just by the island, but by distance, time, death and abandonment. These came to represent four generations of women: Hennain (the Welsh word for great grandmother, literally meaning old grandmother), her late daughter, her single-parent granddaughter Cerys and stroppy teenage great-granddaughter Beth. Many of the people who visit Bardsey and have done so for decades come to the island as families of four generations. Some of them come to renew connections with the island because they left during the great depression like so many native families. Returning and bringing along their descendents has become an annual pilgrimage that symbolises these families’ Welsh heritage. Members of a single family arriving on the boat may arrive speaking English with very different regional accents but by the end of their stay on the island their voices have coalesced into a uniform Welsh conversation that, like the language, embraces the hearth at its core. This prompted me to write about a returning family trying to keep alive their legacy. But in order to address the issues of separation and the problems of communication, it was important that the family in my script was broken apart by death, divorce and distance.

Writing a Script with Female Characters

Despite its subject of being cut off on an island, the script is not about escaping from it. It is a story about being there and finding one’s place. I chose a female central character because the island’s Celtic heritage suggested a more circular and deeper tale, which was greatly inspired by the Heroine’s Journey:
“The triple spiral found in Celtic art reflects the energy of the Triple Goddess: the causal world, the world of thought … and the physical world. Celtic Christianity emphasized the direct individual experiences of spirit … embraced the feminine, the development of intuition, and it encouraged the sensual experience of life. “

Finding Imagery and Sounds of the Arena

During my time on the island I kept a blog as well as making sound and video recordings and taking photographs and doing sketches. I spent one day of my observation in silence during which I focussed upon finding images that represented the arena. This enabled me to concentrate on writing for the screen, capturing the arena’s sounds and scenery.

Another significant focus was how the vivid nature of Hen’s memories could be represented on the screen? Helen’s attention to detail decades previously provided her with such vivid images she was able to intuit her environment both through the strength of her memories and the unchanging nature of the island. Likewise, Beth’s filtered reality through her camera’s viewfinder should represent technology effectively preventing her from being in the moment and fully experiencing her environment. She is unable to form vivid memories because she instead relies upon technology to record it for her.

One significant problem was difficulty of writing visually about darkness. Any representation of the experiences of a family visiting Bardsey would be unrealistic if this vital factor was excluded. This led me to consider how low light sequences might be represented visually on the screen, for example how Hen and Beth might move around outside at night.

Another aspect that came out of focussing on the imagery of the island were the stones that made up the ancient and moss-covered stone walls, the large lumps of quartz that litter the mountain slopes, the tall celtic stone cross that proclaims “twenty thousand saints are buried here”, the tenth century keig graves, all aligned east to west, the crumbling stone ruin of the thirteenth century monastery and the polished round stones sold by the artist in residence. One particular rock is Carreg yr Rhonwy – central to domestic life on Bardsey. It is a stone outcrop in the sea towards which all houses are aligned so that they can have sight of this natural tide meter which dictates the rhythm of life to the same degree as daylight. All Bardsey buildings are made of stone and without it life on the island would be impractical. Stones must somehow play a significant role in the story.

Active Questions

I designed the first act of the story to raise several active questions:

  • What is the bundle?
  • What is the significance of the pebbles
  • Can Bardsey really fix the family?
  • Will Beth cope?
  • Will Beth keep Ross?
  • Will Cerys find love?
  • Will Aled fall?
  • Will Hen die?

Answering these questions provided the bulk of the plot.

Including the Detail

One of the most surprising aspects that I found from writing the first draft of the script was that small details such as fear of the dark and the lack of plumbing kept coming up in the writing. I really hadn’t wanted to focus on these aspects as I felt they wouldn’t do the island justice. I decided to leave these elements in the script as they at least provided a backdrop and a set of actual visual problems for the characters to solve. The tutor’s response was that the first time the script got interesting was when the filter and the well were being described. Perhaps these elements were therefore important after all. Considering that these practicalities were what made staying on the island a challenge for me, perhaps they were valid difficulties for Beth to face.

Finding Cerys

Whilst I was writing the second draft I attended the London Screenwriter’s Festival where Jurgen Wolff did a workshop on creativity. He invited us to explore a character from a script we were working on. I chose the Beth. We were then invited to explore the character’s home, mentally walking around it, and eventually finding a photograph that would tell a secret that the character wants hidden. My visualisation led me to the cupboard under the stairs and to a cracked photograph of a toddler Beth and her family, including her absent father. They were happily standing on Bardsey with the mountain in the background. I realized this photo was different to the photo that sat on Hen’s dresser in the first draft of the script: they were not on Bardsey and it was stated that Beth had never been to Bardsey. Whilst on the surface this seemed like an inconsistency I realized that perhaps the photo presented an alternate vision of how things might have been. The significant difference was that in the story’s reality Cerys never took her husband to Bardsey. Much of the unhappiness in her single parent family was therefore not only due to her divorce but from being segregated from her own culture. Exploring this aspect of the character of Cerys made her softer and, according to feedback from other readers, easier to relate to. She was herself an island adrift.


Initial feedback on the outline suggested that I need to include some of the family’s ‘ordinary world’, so that the reader can first see where they came from. My tutor talked about the glorification of the past and suggested I stay away from such sentimentality. I realised that this arena might be unusual and difficult for some readers to relate to. I must therefore translate this into empathy for the characters as they venture into this strange place. I decided to create a new beginning for the story off the island in Hen’s nursing home as she describes her family to her carer. Her somewhat idealistic depiction of her family living away in London would then contrast sharply with the vulgar reality of a foul-mouthed girl, a disillusioned and disinterested mother and an attention seeking boy with risk issues. Later feedback would suggest that this created too much emphasis on the elderly woman and her carer (who was irrelevant to the story) so I decided to start by introducing Beth and her family then contrasting it with the more genteel and homely Hen.

The climax of the story

Beth was always going to climb the mountain. It provides the biggest barrier on Bardsey and it is this barrier that stops Beth communicating with Ross. It is this barrier that she will ultimately have to surmount and – to go along with her other fears of darkness and isolation – she must climb it alone and at night.
When Beth arrives she must make a choice between the thing she desires (talking to Ross, representing her dependence on a male father figure) and another harder option that ultimately causes her to grow. The heroine says no. She defines herself by this action rather than seeking approval from her man. She makes a choice to bond with her great grandmother, to call her mother out of desire to show her independence and out of her concern and caring for her younger brother. It is right and proper therefore that at the end of the story Beth is both strong and independent.

Closing the circle

Some feedback suggested that the post-script ending was unnecessary. I chose to leave it in as it is vital to Hen, to her family and her culture that she passes on her legacy. Again referring to the Heroine’s Journey Beth’s acceptance of this ancestral feminine wisdom is the culmination of The Heroine’s Journey. It brings balance and closes the circle. Beth has ventured onto the masculine journey, healed the mother/daughter split and taken her place by achieving wholeness as a woman.

Some criticism suggested that Ross should not be included at the end. But Ross comes to the island because it represents hope for the future. Unlike Beth’s father who never came to the island (and so never truly appreciated who Cerys was) Ross comes there.

Beth has grown. She is separate. She communicates well.

Beth has learned to be and she did it on Bardsey.

That is her heritage.


  • Evans, C and Marloh, W., 2008. Bardsey. Ceredigion, Wales: Gomer Press
  • Murdock, M., 1990. The Heroine’s Journey. Boston & London: Shambhala . pp 178-9
  • Vogler, C., 2007. Writer’s Journey: Mythic Stucture for Writers. 3rd Ed. California: Michael Wiese Production

Script: Being on Bardsey

Alright so here it is. The final finished script (well as finished as any script ever actually is).

Script: Being on Bardsey (PDF 152 KB)

I hope you enjoy the script.

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The boathouse